i want to tell you the story of what happened tonight, which caused me great stress. so there was this party going on tonight, and i was invited but couldn’t go due to the fact that i have family visiting tomorrow morning.

anyway, my ex boyfriend texts me, telling me that all of the people at the party including one of my closest friends was calling me a whore and that they could not believe that i would have sex with this kid i met at the party before this. that i was a abomination and that they could never look at me the same way again. 

the problem? me and this kid never had sex. at all. in fact all we did was kiss. shocking. but i have self control and boundaries. i don’t even know where people got the idea we had sex unless the kid told people we did. 

and the other problem? the fact that he said one of my best friend’s called me a whore. yeah, because that’s just fucking plausible, because they hate my ex.

oh, and the other thing, even if i did have sex with this kid, why would i be a whore? we were both single at the time, and if we had sex it would of just been between us. 

so yeah, my ex boyfriend’s main goal is to tear me down and make me feel like everyone is against me because i kissed a guy that wasn’t him. while in reality nobody at that damn party cared, they literally could care less and were only concentrated on how much alcohol they could consume. that my one of my best friend’s was shocked he would even suggest that. for real, me and my ex have been broken up for god knows how long and he tells me that all my friends think i’m a whore. 

i just want to tell you, caleb, you can’t fucking break me. you literally can lie and hurt me as much as you want but the reality is, you lost me. i got over you, and you can’t get the fuck over me. just leave me alone now, because you don’t “own” me.

the stock image was to relieve all the tension in this post.

i need to rant. i was hanging out with one of my closest guy friends today, and my ex boyfriend just happened to be there as well. me and my friend were talking about how our parents suddenly just don’t care what we do once we turned 18. he was talking about how he has no curfew or how his parents don’t care where he goes. i was talking about how my mom says i can do whatever i want as long as i don’t end up dead or pregnant. then i brought up the word condoms, and that is where this whole story goes to shit.

all i said was: ‘my mom even jokes and says she’ll buy me condoms whenever i feel like i need them’ then before i can even finish the rest of my sentence my ex boyfriends yells, fucking yells, ‘THAT IS NOT SOMETHING YOU SHOULD TALK ABOUT IN FRONT OF ME. I DON’T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT’ and he turns around in a huff like a three year old. me and my friend look at each other, and i finish off my sentence ‘but i always have to turn her down because i’m about as sexually active as a nun at the moment’ and all my ex does is sulk some more.

now, the point of this rant, is that whenever me and my ex are in the same place, he feels like he owns me. even though we have been broken up for god knows how long, he tries to keep me on this tight leash. if i sit next to a guy, he’ll try and get me away. if i talk to a guy, he’ll try to get me away and proceed to talk shit on the guy when his back is turned. like the guy’s number who i got two days ago, when he even got the slightest hint that i was starting to take an interest in him, he left the party i was at. yep, just left. and then you can guess it, was complaining about how much he hated the guy even though they have never met. 

and the thing is, i don’t know how to escape. me and him hang out with the same group of people, and whenever i am there he just thinks i’m his. that i can’t talk to anyone, that i can’t look at anyone, that the only person i should be with is him. like i can’t be single, like he can’t physically grasp the concept that we broke up almost half a year ago. i have a feeling that if i get serious with anyone then he’ll make it his main goal to kill them.

i just don’t know how to get away from this situation.